Shandy

that that don't kill me...

2009-03-21T15:28:00.000-07:00

music: Innerpartysystem
mood: i'll get back to you on that one.
reading: brisingr by christopher paolini

urgh.
i know i haven't updated this. to tell the truth, i can't be bothered.

i'm going to jump right into this.

well, a friend has just been pretty much lecturing me about how i don't sleep much then complain about how tired i am the next day. well, first off, i complain a lot. even at home, i will find something to complain about. i guess i just like bitching and moaning. so shoot me.
she then went on to say this:

"ur always on the computer, the only reason to stay awake is so u cn b on the computer get off it and there is no reason to stay awake and "even when i'm in bed i can't get to sleep" is no excuse,even though u may not be sleeping, u are resting which is better than being awake with youreyes glued to ur fuckin pc"

okay, so she may have a point, but the thing is i've gotten pretty much addicted to my computer ever since i first got internet (which was about 3 years ago.). i found stuff online that helped me escape the pressures of real life, such as playing RPGs (AdventureQuest, DragonFable), roleplaying, reading webcomics, watching anime... you get the idea. it was an escape, especially during the time when my dad left and we found out about some of the things he did. (not going to go into detail.)

i guess i've become dependant on it. during school i want to go home so i can go on the computer. yeah, it's that bad, and as a result my real life social life has pretty much become non-existant. sure, i have a few friends, but i cling to them so much because i'm so bad at making new friends that i end up fighting with them all the time. i'm a shy person, i find it hard to connect with people, so when someone ends up ditching me, i feel lost.

I am trying to join the local youth club, so i can make more friends, but knowing the way i am, i'm still going to find it difficult. sometimes i wish i had a phsycaiatrist or something, just to talk to about what's going through my head and such, as i find it hard to bring up certain topics with my mum. hell, i ended up having a total meltdown before i told my mum how much i wanted to have a boyfriend. which is a lot, by the way. but the thing is, if i can't even talk to my mother openly, how can i expect to open up to a total stranger? well, probably retty easily. i have no trouble making a total fool of myself in public, probably because i know that the liklihood of me seeing them again is pretty slim.

or maybe i can just open up on this. it's pretty easy for me, typing things out rather than saying them. that probably why i almost always argue over msn or text. and i don't know if anyone is going to read this. though if my mother chanced upon it, that'd be pretty awkward...

urgh, i don't know, i just feel like a cocktail of emotions right now... gahh... so confuseddd...

by the way, i have a twitter account, which i update waaay more often than this. find it here.

urgh

2009-02-12T14:21:00.000-08:00

music: forever the sickest kids, foxboro hot tubs
mood: depressed and elated
reading: eldest still and kerrang!

God, I actually feel depressed.
My mother happened to have one of my old school photos from year 5 or 6... and the only thing bad about it is that my teeth are all wonky. I mean, my hair used to be reeeeeally long. In the photo it doesn't even fit in the whole picture!! click to see piccy
I really want my hair long again. Hence the reason I'm trying to get hair extensions put in. You know, the ones that last for like 3 months.

However, I might be going to Give It A name on both the 18th and 19th of April.
Enter Shikari, The Blackout, The Academy Is..., Taking Back Sunday, Underoath, Thursday, Escape The Fate... *squeals* AND I might also be going to Download 2009. Slipknot are headlining one of the days, and at the moment theirs also The Prodigy, Motley Crue, Korn, Pendulum, Dragonforce and Devil Driver who will be playing.

Also, my mother's wanker of a boss has left, so hopefully she'll be able to work again. yayness.

Options evening was today as well. And I got my school report. I feel like such a nerd, I got an overall good report except for in RS, but I'm only taking the madatory short course in year 10&11 so I'm okay. :3 and with the way the options blocks have been set out, I can take all of the subjects I want (German, Expressive Arts, Drama, Graphic Art) and I have one slot free. I'm torn between Music, Geography and History. But then, I'm taking guitar lessons in year 10,I just need to talk to De La Boring, Kitey and Morton to see whether I should carry on with History, Geography or Music. Well, I've got music tomorrow, so I can ask my teacher then. Just have to wait after the holidays for the other two.
I wonder if american schooling is this complicated??

I've also finally decided to read the massive pile of Kerrang! issues that have been accumulating since October 25th. That was when I was still friends with HAK. lol. So, I've read one of them, so 1 down, 14 more to go XD

and i'm happy because my new surrealist picture for the project is actually halfway decent. I completely ruined my old one, so I gave up and started again XD
Good Thing the deadline was extended to after the holidays, eh? It's a flower growning upside-down, pretty much. The roots are up in the air whilst the rest of it which it normally above ground in growing underground. so are the dodgy weed-like plants i painted next to it XD

Friday 13th tomorrow... whoo.

~ Shandy

well..... yeeeeaaah...

2009-02-08T09:30:00.000-08:00

music: drop dead, gorgeous
reading: eldest

I've been neglecting this... meh. I was busy; my brother had his 18th, I've re-started roleplaying after stopping for, like, a year :3 AND I took part in a cosplay competition. I cosplayed Shia from Pita-Ten and Nina cosplayed Haruhi from The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya

I've got to read Eldest and Brisingr by the 4th March D: and I'm choosing my options soon. and we've had snow days, I was at school for two days last week off for three days.
Just one more week until Half-Term :D and I do believe a cat was stalking me on Thursday.

Do you like my drawings of Hishiro and Ichigo from Bleach?

~Shandy

And another thing...

2009-01-07T11:28:00.000-08:00

Listening To: Metro Station, Cobra Starship, Flyleaf, Silverstein, Story Of The Year, Tokio Hotel

Typical. Perri isn't online when she should be -_-.

I've been doing some drawing during the holidays, and this is my wolf with a dodgy head:

It's unfinished so hopefully I'll be able to fix the head.

Then there's my melting bottle with a rainbow snake wrapped around it (it's for a surrealist art project):

Ignore the brown on the left, it's a retarded half-dead tree I might or might now add (I need a background for it as well)
And I don't have a scanner so I had to use my phone camera :S

Critiques welcome :)

~ Shandy

Ring Ring Ring Ring Ring Ring Ring, BANANAPHONE

2009-01-07T11:03:00.000-08:00

Mood: Mildly annoyed
Listening To: Flyleaf, Madina Lake, Silverstein, Story Of The Year

lol, Perri reminded me that I hadn't blogged for a bit, so.... there we go...

Back to school, how fun, right? not really :L

Rest of the holidays I did fuck all (as usual). I mostly watched movies, and I have ABBA songs in my head because my mother will.not.stop. playing the Mamma Mia! soundtrack over, and over, and over, and over again -_-... Someone shoot me now.
Talking of mothers, mine might be going back to work sometime next week, after not being there for almost two months.
And on the 9th (I think) I won't've seen or talked to my dad for a whole year... lol

I know there's something else I wanted to write about... but I've forgotten :/... no wait, i remember, pamela gave me my christmas present yesterday, bit late, hm?

And I'm wearing my glasses pretty much all the time now, as opposed to occasionally when my head starts hurting. Not good, 'secially as my eyesight's actually got worse since my last appointment. AND I'm getting my braces removed (maybe) in February =D

Anything else? No idea... Oh yeah, my computer keeps coming up with a message to install automatic updates and trying to restart. YOU CAN INSTALL THEM WHEN I TURN MY COMPUTER OFF MOTHERFUCKER!! (this is why I'm mildly pissed off)

Comments make me happy :] and mean that I'll most likely post more often.

I'm sad that I've been doing brain training every. single. fucking. day since I got it. LOL

Banana Phone!

~ Shandy

Heh ^^;

2009-01-01T16:24:00.000-08:00

Mood: Tired?
Listening To: Cute Is What We Aim For, Cobra Starship, Story Of The Year, Tokio Hotel

heh heh ^^;
I really need to stick to posting every day... That's one of my new years' resolutions.

My Birthday was fun, got breakfast in bed... opened my presents, on computer for a bit, then saw Twilight, which isn't as bad than people make it out to be, but not exactly omgwtfbbqgbriugbfantastic.

New Years Eve i was at Nina's for most of the day, then i just slept there... We were switching between her computer and tv, and then popped 4 party poppers each all in one go, which was... Quite noisy. XD We also squirted loads of silly string everywhere, which was fun but annoying because they didn't really work.
That was the first time I've celebrated New Years without my family...

>And on new years day I tried to unicycle. I cycled about 50cm then fell off XD
I left around 7:30pm... I went to hers at around 2pm on the 31st, and was going to leave sometime in the evening, but ended up spending around an extra 24 hours there.... haha.

My new years' resolutions:
1) post in this every day
2) exercise more
3) lose weight
4) think more before opening my trap
5) be more organised

Craaap

2008-12-28T17:06:00.001-08:00

Mood: Energetic
Listening To: Linkin Park

Heh, forgot to update two days in a row ^^;... Well, more like I haven't had the time... LOL

So, Saturday, I did fuck all as usual, slept in 'til 12 and then did computery stuff. I also had this argument with people I didn't even know and where apparently older than me. The whole thing was pretty pathetic to be honest. I also watched one of Jimmy Carr's shows, he's quite funny, but no match compared to Russell <3.
I'm also trying to watch my brother's Jackass boxset. I've watched series 1, but I've been putting off watching series 2. Why? I mean, Johnny Knoxville gets kicked in the bollocks for fucks sake!

And Today? Well, technically yesterday, (1am at time of writing) I slept in late AGAIN, then we went to visit some friends, which mostly involved the adults and my older brother talking, my other brother and their only son hanging out together (that sounds wrong lol) playing on their ps3 while me and the girls hung out in the living room watching tv and doing hair an make up... and me playing on the DS ^^;
We left at around midnight, we got there around 3... My mum talks A LOT. When we were in a car my brother pointed out that it was 2 minutes to midnight... Cue me singing (quite badly) the chorus of the song by Iron Maiden, lol, how sad.

Everyone except me are asleep now, I'm not tired, must be all the sleeping I've done recently...

In about 26 hours I've been outside in the world for 14 years... Thats... kinda scary...

~ Shandy.

bleeeeeeeh

2008-12-26T13:30:00.000-08:00

Mood: Bored
Listening To: Random bands on my playlist

Boring day today. Did fuck all but sit in front of the computer, watching stuff. Well, films. Tales From Earthsea (which I've seen before), Princess Mononoke (which I haven't), and Howl's Moving Castle. All Miyazaki films (Tales From Earthsea is directed by Goro Miyazaki, Hayao's son). I love their films, and is it strange that I find the males leads (Arren from Tales From Earthsea, Ashitaka from Princess Mononoke and Howl from Howl's Moving Castle) attractive? God that's kinda sad...

I also watched Russell Howard again. God I love that dude. My mum watched with me, because I was almost pissing myself laughing last night. It wasn't as funny second time round, but still, that's not really saying much :L

I'm really bored now though, I can't think of anything to do... I might borrow one of Kevin's many boxsets he got for christmas and watch them, I'm kinda sick of doing Sudoku on the DS at the moment.

~Shandy

Woah.

2008-12-25T12:32:00.001-08:00

Mood: Tired
Listening To: Fall Out Boy mixtape.

I haven't posted since August XD wow, this Blog probably feels so neglected D:
so, new year's resolution: post in this Blog every day!

So, what have I been up to recently? Well, school started, that kinda sucks, I went to see Kill Hannah on September 26th, that was awesome. I have a Halloween party on Halloween (no shit). that was good. Then on November 5th I had a 'fall out' with 3 of my ex-best friends. We're still not talking, it's been nearly two months. I personally find that hilarious, because whenever I happen to go near them they either start whispering to each other or saying things that'd normally make me jealous, such as a concert they're going to. I've found new friends now though, and they're freaking awesome XD.

Now though, well, it's Christmas, and I'm on the computer. How sad is that?
So, a run down of today:

About 12:20 - Mum calls me downstairs (I was still awake) and asks me if I want to open one of my presents now. Of course I do! Open present, (it was Dr. Kawashima's Brain Training if anyone is curious) Sean had already opened one of his, and Kevin was at midnight mass (the religious fool) and didn't.
About 1am - Go to sleep after playing on brain training.
8:30 - Wake up. Get changed, have breakfast etc.
9am - Wake Sean up (the lazy bastard!) so we can open presents.
About 9:30 - Present opening! Get:
- Fullmetal Alchemist: Dual Sympathy for DS
- Kerrang! The Album 2008
- This War Is Ours - Escape The Fate
- Suicide Season - Bring Me The Horizon
- Take Off Your Colours - You Me At Six

10ish - Play games on DS
11ish - Take dog for a walk (how thrilling!)
11:30 - Play on the DS some more
12? - Have Christmas lunch (turkey, stuffing, carrots, potatoes. yum!)
14:45 - Watch Mamma Mia! with mum and brothers.
15:30 - Go upstairs. Play on DS some more
? - Go on computer. Put CDs onto computer and update Bebo and Blogger profiles.

And that's been my Christmas day. How exciting

And I've realised how little presents I got... I did get a load of make up a couple of days ago (liquid eyeliner, concealer, foundation, blusher, foundation brush). But then, it is my birthday in 5 days.
Wonder if I'll be getting any more of the DS games I asked for? Or anything else on my Christmas list...
The whole list is:

DS games:
- Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney
- The World Ends With You
- The Sims 2 Apartment Pets
- Harvest Moon
- More Brain Training (I think)
Other Games:
- Blue Dragon - Xbox 360

Books:
- Brisingr - Christopher Paolini
- D.N.Angel volumes 6-8 - Yukiru Sugisaki
- Maximum Ride - Saving The World And Other Extreme Sports and The Final Warning - James Patterson

I know for definite that my mum didn't get Blue Dragon, because I added it to my list after she ordered everything. I added TWEWY after as well, but I think she did actually get it, unless she was lying :/

Well, that it for now, I'll hopefully post tomorrow, but I doubt anyone actually reads this :L

I'm now going to watch Russell Howard Live. God that man is cute :)

Tata!

~ Shandy

08/08/08

2008-08-08T11:24:00.000-07:00

Mood: Chilled ^.^
Listening to: Keane - Try Again. Panic At The Disco - Mad As Rabbits

Today is a very special day, and not because it's the start of the Olympics either. (Did anyone watch that by the way? My brother watched all of it, I just saw bits and pieces.) Today is the 08/08/08, this sort of date only comes a year, one month and one day! (Until it gets to the 12/12/12, then you'll have to wait 900-odd years until the 01/01/3001)

Been a long time since I've posted... not that anyone really reads this anyways :) Well, since my last post not a lot of stuff has been going on, I've been to school, and am now in my summer holidays/vacation depending on where you are when you're reading this. I've been shopping, done usual home-y stuff... Oh, and I'm going to see Kill Hannah on the 26th of September with some of my friends.

And one of my brother's friends who lives 2 hours away came over and spent about 4 days here. All of them devoid of the mother minus evenings. Joy. He seems to enjoy going into my room at least once during his stay to draw on my face while I'm sleeping. Thanks, Adam -_-¤

And I've seen Angus, Thongs And Perfect Snogging and The Dark Knight, both pretty good films. I recently watched Treasure Planet, which I haven't seen in ages, and have fallen in love with it again. I'm going to watch it again once I've posted this. ;]

Hopefully, my computer should be fixed before the holidays are over, which is a good thing, I guess.

~Shandy ~<>"

Waka Laka Waka Laka!

2008-07-06T11:17:00.000-07:00

Mood: Hyper
Listening To: Waka Laka!

No, I haven't gone crazy, it's just that I recently found this video on the lovely and amazing youtube, and have found it incredibly addictive:

Also, I'm going through a tiny Kill Hannah obsession, particularly with this song:

^.^ Videos are fun!!

~Shandy

Of Anime and Leek spinning

2008-07-06T03:47:00.000-07:00

OK, just a little bit of a rant about anime. Namely, 3. Bleach, Naruto and One Piece. I'm talking about these in particular because all of them are insanely long. For instance, Bleach, which I ma watching at the moment, currently have 179 episodes and is still airing, Naruto has 286 episodes and is still airing, and One Piece has 360 and is STILL AIRING.

Sure, they are good animes (so I've heard, I've only watched Bleach so far) but still, that many episodes!? that's probably put off people from watching it, and the anime is probably just going in circles because it is so long... Bleach even has 3 series that don't even have to be there, but are to allow the creator to write more material.

OK, rant is sort of over, though it wasn't really a rant to begin with...

Now, about the leek spinning. You might want to have a look at this website first.
The animation is from Bleach, when Orihime, one of the characters, gets 'hit' by a car and her shopping goes everywhere, she picks up one of the spilled leeks and spins it. Well, I'm kinda getting obsessed with the song, for some reason XD. But listen to it!!! How can you not love it???
There's a Techno version as well

~Shandy

In other news, I was eating dry cereal a while ago (don't ask) and I picked up one, and look at that massive chunk of sugar on it!! Look at it!!!

100 things about me.

2008-07-06T02:43:00.000-07:00

1. Full Name: Shannon Kimberly Joyce Williamson
2. Nicknames: Shandy
3. Birthday: 30/12/94
4. Place of Birth: Erkelenz, Deutschland
5. Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
6. Male or female: Female
7. Year: 8
8. School: KSHS
9. Occupation: Couch Potato
10. Residence: Sleaford
11. MSN Screen Name: ѕнαηđı™...<3

Your Appearance

12. Hair Colour: Brown
13. Hair Length: Short
14. Eye colour: Brown Grey
15. Nails: Long
16. Height: 5' something
17. Braces? Yes -_-
18. Glasses? Yes
19. Piercings: Ears
20. Tattoos: None
21. Righty or Lefty: Lefty!!

Your 'Firsts'

22. First best friend: Can't Remember
23. First Award: Certificate of attendance at school?
24. First Sport You Joined: Swimming
25. First pet: 3 rabbits
26. First Real Vacation: Thassos, Greece
27. First Concert: Iron Maiden, December 18th 2006
28. First Love: Andrew

Favourites

29. Movie: Little Miss Sunshine
30. TV programme: Bleach?
31. Colour: all of them?
32. Rapper: Eminem
33. Band: Kill Hannah
34. Song Right now: Made Up Stories
35. Friends: Asha, Kimmy, Jenni, Han, Perri, Megan!, The Gee, Kat, Pam
36. Sweet: Gum
37. Sport to Play: Badminton
38. Restaurant: The Big Wok
39. Favourite brand: n/a
40. Store: Blue Banana
41. School Subject: Drama
42. Animal: Platypus
43. Book: Twilight Series
44. Magazine: Kerrang!
45. Shoes: Adio skating shoes

Currently

46. Feeling: Tired
47. Single or Taken? Single :(
48. Have a crush: Lots
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: Nothing
51. Typing: This
52. Online? Yupp
53. Listening To: Dir En Grey - Rain
54. Thinking About: Bleach (anime)
55. Wanting To: Watch Bleach and get this finished
56. Watching: Bleach
57. Wearing: t-shirt jeans, no socks :]

Your Future

58. Want kids?? Kinda
59. Want to be married? Yeah
60. Careers in Mind: Pro Photographer, make-up artist/hair stylist
61. Where do you want to live: Japan ^.^
62. Car: A Truck

Which is Better With The Opposite Sex

63. Hair colour: doesn't matter.
64. Hair length: Medium
65. Eye colour: Doesn't matter
66. Measurements: ...
67. Cute or Sexy: Both
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Both
70. Short or Tall: Tallish
71. Easygoing or serious: Easygoing, but can be serious
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontaneous
73. Fatty or Skinny: Skinny
74. Sensitive or Loud: Both!
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: Both
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Trouble Maker

Have you ever

78. Kissed a Stranger: No
79. Had Alcohol: Yes
80. Smoked: No
81. Ran Away From Home: No
82. Broken a bone: No
83. Got an X-ray: Yes
84. Been with someone: Yes
85. Broken Someone’s Heart: No
86. Broke Up With Someone: Yes
87. Cried When Someone Died: No
88. Cried At School: Yes

Do You Believe In

89. God: No
90. Miracles: No
91. Love At First sight: Yes
92. Ghosts: Yes
93. Aliens: Yes
94. Soul Mates: Yes
95. Heaven: No
96. Hell: No
97. Angels: No
98. Kissing on The First Date: No
99. Horoscopes: No

Answer Truthfully

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? No

Ok, heres the deal.

2008-07-06T01:51:00.000-07:00

This blog here is my personal blog, where I'll be posting random shits and giggles, and basically using it for blog-y type things.

The other blog, There Is No God, is a story I'll be writing sparodically, whenever I get bored. It's link is http://shandy3.blogspot.com/, so check it out if you want to. ;]

Well, that's all, blog entry will be soon, i.e, sometime in the next 10 minutes, with luck.

~Shandy